More shopping

I guess I’m in a shopping frenzy right now.  I went to Amarillo after school today to see if I could find a movie that I’m thinking about showing my classes while I’m gone next week.  I didn’t find it at Best Buy, but did find it at Target and it was only  $4.75.  I was also looking for shoes (can you ever have too many shoes?) but didn’t find any.  I did, however, find a cute little black dress for only $14.  I thought it might be nice to wear it to whatever Matthew and I decide to do in Dallas when we are down there. 

I talked with him briefly yesterday and we are going to do something tomorrow night after my interview.  Speaking of which, I have no idea what to wear tomorrow.  I want it to go well, but I’m wondering if should just relax and try not to prepare too much.  I guess I’ll go sort through my closet and see what I can come up with.  I don’t want to wear something I’ve already worn for an interview for fear of jinxing it.  I know it is totally superstitious and unfounded, but oh well. 

I had lunch with my ex-husband today.  He is in town this week helping out his mother who just had surgery.  Is it bad that I wanted to have lunch with him just so he could see how fabulous I am now?  Of course he doesn’t really like the hair cut – he says it’s cute but he prefers my hair long.  I told him that he’s not the one to have to take care of it.  I also told him that the person that matters the most doesn’t care if my hair is long or short.  But it was a pleasant visit none-the-less.  I get the feeling that something is bothering him, but he wouldn’t tell me.  If I had to guess, I think he’s having second thoughts on playing baby daddy, but feels like he can’t cut and run – but that is just totally a guess on my part.  He is living with a woman that was 4 months pregnant when they met and the father of her child up and walked out.  So my ex who is seven years older than me and really didn’t want more kids has stepped into the part of a father. 

Well, time to raid my closet and see what I can wear for tomorrow.  I think I’ll take a shower tonight and try to call it an early night.  Probably take 1/2 an ambien to assure a good night’s sleep.