Thursday, January 06, 2005

Life's a Bitch and Then You Die

O.k. yes, I'm dealing with a tiny bit of depression at the moment. Marty left to go home today. Well, maybe not home. Back to Connecticut for who knows how long and then off to California who knows when. Then on to Alaska by June 1. For a year. Ugh.
I'm going to try to visit him again as soon as I can, but he has to get his additional orders first.
It was wonderful having him here. I'll delve into those details in another post as this one is reserved for bitching.
Let's see what else can we cover....
Work sucks right now. I still have tons to do and don't want to do any of it. Once again I've gotten in too deep offering to do too much for my advisers and still wrangling my schedule. I've offered to help a school on Saturday to try and meet their first deadline and I'm not very hopeful. I've got full visits scheduled next week.
On the upside I get to go to San Antonio next week and be put up in a nice hotel for 3 nights, eating drinking and being merry, oh and some business meetings and I get a fancy new ring.
My heater still sucks. The motor seems to be running fine, but not sure about the actual blower now. Since the temperature has dropped, my house has been hanging around 62 degrees.
Once again I'm bringing out the portable heaters just trying to keep from freezing. And now no Marty to snuggle with.
It just keeps getting better.
And this afternoon I have to take my cousin that wrecked his car to the judge so he can figure out what he's supposed to do regarding his citation. He wants to take defensive driving, but he doesn't have the money for the court costs, but he has to appear by tomorrow. So, he might be SOL regardless.
Oh, and I'm still broke because child support hasn't been paid and I'm behind on bills at the moment.
And on top of that, I can't write checks at Walmart because they think I have a hot check there which is really one of my dad's checks (but my name is on the account) and it was stolen several weeks ago.
Let's go for another one or two shall we?
Just got a notice in the mail saying that my ex-husband's bike payment still hasn't been received. (Though he assured me on the 22nd that it had been duly sent)
And to top it all off.... I've gained 8 pounds.
Can we call it a day please?

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Time to quit hiding....

O.k. I stole this from a couple of other sites and hoping my lurkers will at least comment.

De-Lurking Day!
I know you are there. My sitemeter stats tell me you come by. Today is the day for you to come out of the shadows and let me know who you are!
Well, okay, technically you have that chance everyday, but today is De-Lurking Day! A special day celebrating lurkers, and begging you to gather up the strength and bravery to click on that comment button and end the deafening silence.
So say hi, or tell me what you are doing these days, or what you're having for lunch, or what your kids are doing to drive you insane, or how you will take over the world --- or whatever is on your mind.
I am one of the worst offenders, and may be stopping by your site to say "Hello, I'm Annabel, and I am a lurkaholic!"

I'd offer to send money to charity like others are doing, but I'm so broke I can't afford much these days. But since you do stop by from time to time, do tell me who you are. Please? Pretty-please? With sugar on top?

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Ringing in the New Year

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
I rode the tallest and fastest rollercoaster. Top Thrill Dragster at Cedar Point. It was my 100th coaster.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I know better than to make any resolutions as I never keep them. I won’t make any for 2005 either. I think I simply resolved to make sure 2004 was better than 2003 and it was.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, my cousin Amanda had her baby, Liam, in April. He’s a cute as can be. (Aside from my own child of course)

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No, thankfully.

5. What countries did you visit?
None. But I did visit several states this year. Texas, \Oklahoma, Illinois, Ohio, Indiana, Kentucky, Missouri, Connecticut and Massachusetts.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
More money. Trust.

7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 16 the date of my divorce and July 10 the date Marty and I officially started being a couple.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting divorced. The work I did on the house.

9. What was your biggest failure?
My marriage.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not really. I think I’ve developed a pretty good immune system by visiting so many schools. Except for spraining my ankle when I visited Steve in Michigan.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
New printer/scanner/card reader. Wallpaper and border for Josh’s room.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
I would say Marty except for the fact that he screwed up on my birthday. Mostly he’s been good. Except for the whole ex-wife thing which I’ll eventually deal with.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and disgusted?
Only myself at times. Not really. That was 2003. So I guess nobody other than perhaps advisers who didn’t meet their deadlines.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Bills, trips, work on the house.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Going to my coaster convention and riding my 100th coaster. Going to see Marty. Marty coming to see me. Emerald earrings from Marty. First season of Monk from Patrick. CSI seasons 1 & 2 from Marty.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Like I actually listened to music of this year… I mostly listen to older stuff or classical. I guess the song that reminds me the most of the year is Beautiful by Christina Aguilara. Kind of became my theme song at the end of 2003 from my dance workout classes.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier… mucho happier
b) thinner or fatter? About the same, maybe a few pounds added that I need to deduct.
c) richer or poorer? Poorer since my bonus was cut in half. But still o.k. financially.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
More exercise.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worrying. Speculating.

20. How did you spend New Year's Eve?
With Marty and some friends and family.

21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
YES!

22. How many one-night stands?
None in 2004.

23. What was your favorite TV program?
Monk, CSI

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope.

25. What was the best book you read?
The Five People you Meet in Heaven

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
The movie “Ray”

27. What did you want and get?
To ride new rollercoasters. A good relationship

28. What did you want and not get?
New sewer line. New heating and air.

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
I didn’t really see that many movies this year. “Ray” was the most recent. Nothing that has been placed high on my favorites list, but “Ray” was indeed a good movie.

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 35 and took Josh (my son who shares the same birthday and turned 14) and his friends to the movies.

31.What one thing would have made your year measurably more satisfying?
Marty being out of coast guard.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Fashion? What’s that? Comfortable and casual.

33. What kept you sane?
Getting divorced.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
William Peterson and George Eads from CSI.

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
None. I don’t care for politics. Glad that Bush won though.

36. Who did you miss?
Marty when I was away from him.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
Patrick who has become a good friend. (Marty wasn’t new since I met him in high school.)

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
Long distance relationships suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down…
The medicine go down….

Saturday, January 01, 2005

Happy New Year

Well, 2004 is done. Yes, I'm being redundant as all the blogs are saying that. All in all it wasn't a bad year. I'm going to do a meme on it soon and you can judge for yourself.
Last night we had a party. It was wonderful having Marty here. I made tons of food and actually had several show up. I cooked homemade pizza and fettucini alfredo. Also made a pineapple upside down cake and chocolate chip cookies and a kind of punch. (spiked, yes) My cousin came with a friend, so did my brother, and several of Marty's family.
We had sparkling wine (not champagne as I've since been corrected on that) at midnight. Got a kiss.
So far the time with Marty has been wonderful. I definitely like the Marty in Texas better. He denies being any different, but I've noticed it. He finally consented stating that perhaps it was the stress of working while I was there. Perhaps. But I am disinclined to completely agree with that. I think a lot of it had to do with his ex. Though I'm sure he'd continue to deny it. I still have some major issues with all of that and hope to deal with that soon. But now that he's here, a lot of my concerns have diminished.
I love the way he touches me. He's always letting me know that I'm special just by touching me. He'll hold my hand. Reach out and stroke my hair. Rub my shoulders. Kiss me. Just those little things let me know how he feels. And I've noticed now that it's not all about sex. Yes, sex is still a good thing and I like it, but it's more about just being with him. I think it's a sign of our relationship maturing.
And he danced with me. We went to his cousin's house. Had some drinks. His cousin wanted to dance. So everyone went to the garage to dance. His cousin was very drunk. And Marty spun me a few times and danced with me. It was so nice to dance with him. I say this because I never wanted to dance with Richard. Probably because Richard was a complete dork and looked like an idiot with no rhythm, but maybe deeper than that. Marty isn't quite Fred Astair, but I loved the effort he made and I didn't feel weird with him at all.
I still love his family. They have always made me feel welcome with them and they have been wonderful with me. They are full of hugs. His mother on more than one occasion has told Marty that he should keep me. I have also found out another thing she has told him, but will comment on that later. She also gave me a $25 Barnes & Noble gift certificate. That was very sweet of her. If things ever go awry with us, I will still hang on to his family if I can. They are wonderful people.
Yes, I still have a few concerns to deal with, but all in all I'm glad to be with Marty and think he's a damn fine catch.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

This is Surprising





You Were Nice This Year!





You're an uber-perfect person who is on the top of Santa's list.
You probably didn't even *think* any naughty thoughts this year.
Unless you're a Mormon, you've probably been a little too good.
Is that extra candy cane worth being a sweetheart for 365 days straight?



Survived Christmas

Christmas is finally over. It's a great time of year, but always very tiring it seems. Left on Thursday to drive to Albuquerque. Weather was bad. Had some major ice on the highway off and on until Cline's Corners. There were idiot drivers speeding around me on the ice. Was amazed they didn't spin off the road. Did see a few accidents.
Went to the baptism on Christmas Eve. Josh and I played our duet. Didn't do too bad on it and got several compliments afterwards. Also did part of reading in the baptism. Was very nice.
I decided that since I couldn't bring Josh's keyboard in without him knowing that he got it, I wrapped his adapter to it instead and then left clues for him to find it. I guess I stumped him a little, but he figured it out finally.
Went to my sister's Christmas morning. She made breakfast for everyone. We opened gifts there and then headed back to my aunt's for lunch. Traditional turkey dinner with all the trimmings. Very yummy.
What did I get you ask? I got the motor for my heater from my brother, first season of Monk from Patrick, a laser level from my aunt, flannel pajamas that my sister made, a basket of bath items from my cousin, and a gift certificate to Hastings books from Kirsten. Not a bad haul. Still don't know what Marty got me, but am simply anxious to see him. Another day and a half!!
Made it home today and am relieved to be back. Can't wait to sleep in my own bed. Slept on the couches at my aunt's house since it would have been cold in my dad's RV.
Now I'm sitting here watching Mary Poppins, having a rum and coke. I always enjoy watching Mary Poppins. It always puts a smile on my face.
Tomorrow, I have to get up early and take my cousin to the airport. I'm also supposed to have lunch with my friend Cristal. Then I've got to get some yearbook stuff done. Got to tidy up the house a bit. Will be a long day, but will at least keep me busy so I won't be waiting too impatiently for Marty. O.k. I know I'm obsessing. But it's been two months now. But I'll shut up now.

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Do I dare?

Oh, you triple dog dare me, eh? O.k. I'll say it. I think my heater is fixed. My wonderful brother has earned sainthood in my book. He got the motor, installed it and it's running. I'll report back later and see if the temp in the house indeed goes up, but so far it looks good.
AND on top of that, he didn't ask me to pay him back. He told me that's my Christmas present. Wooooo Hooooo! Happy, happy, joy, joy!
So now that I've said that, I wonder what's going to fall apart now?

Josh and I have actually practiced. And I can still play my licorice stick. (For those of you not familiar with the term, that would be a clarinet) We're adding another song to the mix in order to have about 2 1/2 minutes worth of music.

I still have yet to finish the other albums, but will start on that shortly. Worse case, I can finish them in Albuquerque.

Things are looking up so I'm sure something else has to come crashing down, right? I know, I hate the pessimistic attitude too, but Murphy's Law seems to be prevalent these days.

But in any case... Merry Christmas everybody!!! I may not be blogging for a few days as I probably won't have much internet access in ABQ.

Go Figure...

O.k. I'm still not done bitching about the heater. Have left it off all day as it has indicated it just doesn't want to work. My brother called at 5:40 telling me what to do to try to get it going (and no, a new belt probably isn't the issue) and I've already tried doing that. Then, he tells me to help it along when it starts to spin, but be careful not to get my fingers in the way lest it should tear it off or something. Though I'm not comfortable with that option I figure I'll give it a whirl. What's the loss of an extra finger when it comes to heat? So I turn it on and now it starts to spin faster than before which gives me hope (and too fast for me to help it), but alas it still won't get going. So I call him back and he says, "Yup, it's the motor". This is at a time when everything is closing down and I can't get a new one until the morning. Given that the temperature is going to plummet to about 8 degrees tonight, I'm not happy with that option. But wait! There's hope on the horizon. I call the plumbing supply place and ask them when they're closing today. He said "5:30" and I said o.k. But then he said "what did you need?" and I tell him that I need a blower motor that I had called about earlier. He asked how long it would be and I said my brother was about 15 minutes away. He finally said to go ahead and send him. So I did. And wouldn't you know it? The stupid thing started spinning. (I didn't dare call Tim back lest I jinx things once more)
I guess that's my Christmas present to myself. $87 plus tax. I wanted to have some extra money while Marty was here. Oh well. Guess we'll live as paupers for a few days.
And on top of all that, my bank called to inform me that Richard is again late with his bike payment. Called him and said he sent it yesterday. Whatever. I asked him again about refinancing and he said he's still planning to do that when he can. i.e. Never. I knew that damn bike would be a pain in the ass. It's going to haunt me and screw my credit for the next 3 1/2 years.
O.k. I guess I need to say something positive. I finished my brother and sister's photo albums. Only 4 more to go! My house is still clean. That's it. I'm fresh out of anything else at the moment.

And now it's cooling down...

Once again, quite literally. I knew it was too good to be true. I got too hopeful last night. Kind of like Patrick talking about having a girlfriend, I guess. (Sorry Patrick, thought the analogy was funny) I'm sure Patrick's situation has much more potential than my heating issues. Went to bed around 10:30 with it quite comfortable in the house. Woke up at 2:30 hearing Josh laughing in the living room. (It's Christmas break so he doesn't have to be in bed by 11) Heard the heater blower motor try to start many, many times, but it just wouldn't. I couldn't go back to sleep. So around 4 a.m. I got up and started searching furnace heater motor blowers. Did you know that they're hard to come by? And when you find what you think is it, you're not sure because you know absoultely nothing about them. Tim had me write down all sorts of information so I would be sure to know what I was looking for... 1/4 horsepower, 115 volts, 5.3 amps, 1725 RPM, A 48 frame and 1/2 inch motor shaft... what more could you ask for you say??? Well, how about whether it's a split phase start, or a capacitor start, or a three phase...
And then there's the mounting. Could be solid, rigid or footed or maybe it's resiliant or perhaps even a face or flange. And of course you can't forget about it's closure... is it open air over or open air proof? Or it could be one of the Haz-TENV, ODP, TEFC, or TEAO.
Aaaaarrrrrggggghhhhhhhh!
Tim mentioned last night that the belt was loose. I'm kind of thinking perhaps I can get by with just buying a new belt. As soon as I think that, I'm certain I will need to go ahead and shell out the bucks for the motor too.
I've called my brother, but he hasn't called me back and probably won't until around 5 p.m. I'm not sure what to do in the meantime. Do I go get the belt and play handywoman? Do I go ahead and try to find a motor locally? If I find one, do I get it? When I got up this morning, the temp in the house was 56. My room was nice and toasty as I left my portable heater going. But honestly, this is getting totally rediculous.
If there happens to be any millionaires or billionaires with a few thousand extra bucks lying around and want to donate to the Heat Annabel's House Cause, drop me a line would ya? Thanks.

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Things are heating up

O.k. I mean that literally. Got the heater working finally. My brother was a godsend and actually called me back and came down here to look at my heater. Thought it was going to be bad because he was mentioning a new heater motor blower thing and stuff like that. But what he ended up doing was tightning the belt that was squealing, oiled the motor parts, and replaced the filter that was so disgusting I'm probably going to have nightmares about it. It probably hasn't been changed since sometime before mom was diagnosed with cancer if that tells you anything. So, it still isn't a great heater, but it's at least trying. Just checked the thermostat and it's reading about 72 now. Yipppeeeee!
I have been working on photo albums all day. Got my brother's done. Still need to do my sisters and my nephews. I made a photo frame thing for my cousin. After all that is done, I'll be finished with my Christmas stuff.
Josh and I still need to practice. I hope I have some decent reeds. I haven't picked up my clarinet in over a year since mom's memorial service last November. Guess I need to see if I can still play.
I've still successfully avoided doing any kind of yearbook work as well. I really need to do some of that, but perhaps when I'm in Albuquerque.
I am sooooooo ready for Marty to be here. This is the longest we've had to go so far in seeing each other since July. I know I have to get used to it because he'll be gone a full year. But I don't have to like it.