Slowly getting back to normal

The pity part is over for now. I know I need to quit being so damn impatient and that things will happen in time. I'm going to try to focus on the things I should be doing rather than the things I want to be doing. I didn't get my house completely clean, but it's close. I got the extra bedroom cleared of all the stuff that has been in there since I redid the bathroom. I mostly cleaned the kitchen, the living room is tidy. My bathroom is cleared, but I still need to clean the counter and such. Josh's bathroom is clean. I don't know why I worry so much about the state of my house when people come over. I don't want to be judged, I guess. I have to learn that it's o.k. to not have a house that is scrubbed clean from top to bottom. That just isn't who I am. My life is much too busy to keep it that tidy. And if someone judges me for that.. oh well.
My friend Brent came over tonight and we had a very nice visit. I was making Manwich for supper and I invited him to eat and he said it was one of his favorite things to make. So we ate dinner, visited a long while and had a very nice conversation. He told me that he recently played Scrabble for the first time and I was in complete shock. I mentioned that I loved playing Scrabble, but nobody would play with me. (And my ex still accuses me of cheating) But he offered to play a game so I took him up on it. I did beat him by a large margin, but he was very gracious about it. It's been a while since I've been able to simply enjoy a friendly game.
I haven't done a single thing to get ready for school this week. I guess I'll catch up one of these days... maybe by Christmas.
And Summer... I really appreciated your comment on the earlier post. I don't often see myself like that and it made me feel very good about myself. I don't think of myself as being intimidating at all, but your kindness really lifted my spirits considerably. And Rebecca, thanks for commenting as well. I certainly stand by that statement and I'm glad you agreed with me.