Thursday, October 15, 2009

So much for a relationship

I'm thinking I no longer have a boyfriend... but I'm really not certain. I sent him a text message today to the effect that if he really isn't a chance to see each other next weekend to let me know so I could make other plans. I also mentioned that I was sorry that what I said bothered him and I hoped that he would consider it from my perspective. The response I got from him was "go ahead and make other plans." So I did. I've been wanting to get back into ACE (American Coaster Enthusiasts) and start going to events again. I haven't been in probably five years now. There is an event next weekend that I wanted to go to but I decided I couldn't if that was the weekend that Thomas could visit. And since he can't/won't and won't let me visit him, I decided to hell with it all and that I was going to head to San Antonio and go to Fiesta Fest. It is my favorite park with some of my favorite coasters and I just want to be able to take a break from everything right now and find some enjoyment. Do I really have time for this? No. But I just don't care. I'm so stressed out by everything else that I think that I really need this break.

I haven't heard from Thomas all day other than the text message he responded to. He hasn't gotten online so I'm getting the silent treatment again. But I'm not really all that upset. The fact that he doesn't want me to visit him is very disconcerting for me. It makes me wonder what he is hiding. So I'm just going to go with my instincts right now and let it go. I would love to be in a relationship with someone, but perhaps it's just not in the cards for me right now.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Oh, I am so sorry to hear this. What is wrong with the men out there? You are such a lovely, smart woman. Don't worry, just get on with your life and school. I believe God has a very special person in mind for you honey, so be patient. I am pulling for you!!! Betzy