Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Better now

So, he didn't lie. I overreacted, but his reaction to my overreaction was a bad decision in being silent. He was overwhelmed and feeling smothered. I was smothering because he wasn't talking. A total catch-22. We've talked. I had lots to say about it. He apologized. I apologized. We cleared things up - set some new ground rules and are back on track. He said he was still crazy about me. Yes, he acted childishly, but to be honest, I did too.

We thought we might get to meet this weekend, but doesn't look like it will happen. We still have plans for the weekend of the 25th. And yes, he's making the trip down here. I think it's more appropriate that he makes the first trip effort. (Especially after all my efforts with Marty along with the money I spent.) I'm trying to be careful and take things slow. He'd like to move faster still but I'm still keeping things toned down to a degree. Our emotional levels have not been in sync yet, but I think they're moving closer together. I was surprised that I was more upset by the possibility of not getting a chance with him than I thought I would be.

So that is where things are at this point. Relationships are still complex and full of those moments of figuring out what sets each other off. I think we discovered that fully this past weekend.

School is still overwhelming. I am constantly behind. I have no idea how I'm supposed to teach English this year. And now I have to take a stupid journalism test to get my certification. I hope it gets better soon.

1 comment:

abbagirl74 said...

I am glad you were able to clear things up with him. I am sure the weekend plans will go well.

Don't let school get the best of you. Take time off for yourself. Have a super weekend!