Thursday, September 17, 2009

Still Going...

but barely. I've been home sick for two days. On Tuesday morning I started getting a scratchy feeling in my throat. As the day progressed, I started feeling worse and I could feel my tonsils getting more sore. By the time I got home I had a fever. At 1:30 in the morning I realized that I couldn't go to school so I got on the computer to put in for a substitute, created a lesson plan for the day, and emailed to to three people at school. At 6:30 that morning I called the principal to let him know. At 9:00 I called the doctor's office and scheduled an appointment. I still had fever, still felt horrible. Thankfully it wasn't strep (or I'm sure I would have felt a lot worse) but I do have tonisillitis. I picked up a (free) prescription at the store yesterday and came home and went to bed. I hardly got out of bed at all except to make a quick dinner.
I decided last night around 7:30 that I probably shouldn't push it and should try to get another day of rest so I went ahead and made the arrangements for a sub again. I'm glad I did. Though the fever is gone, I just feel drained. Hopefully I'll be ready to go back tomorrow.
So in other news. I hate teaching. Let me rephrase that. I hate teaching English. I really don't like my class. If I could get rid of about 3 students, it wouldn't be too bad. I'm still perpetually behind and missing school for two days this week certainly isn't going to allow me to catch up. But I honestly don't care. I know it is a bad attitude to take, but I really did not WANT to teach Enlgish. I still feel overwhelmed. I have no idea what I'm doing in this class and I don't know that I'll ever get ahead. Or perhaps that is just my "calling" to always be behind. I used to have a sign in my room that said "God put me on this Earth to accomplish a certain number of things. I'm so far behind that I'll never die." That is the story of my life right now.
In the dating arena, things are going well so far. Thomas will be coming to visit in just over a week. We still talk daily. I still like him a lot. I really hope that meeting will really confirm our compatibility.
Well, I think it is time to find something for lunch. Maybe that will give me a little more energy. I still feel tired and haven't really moved much from the bed all morning. Good thing have this laptop lap desk.


Leann said...

I hope by this point you're feeling much better.

There seems to be a lot of the same thing going around here.

Take care and I hope the meeting with Thomas goes well.

abbagirl74 said...

Hope you had a better day today. I can't wait to hear about Thomas and when he visits.

Anonymous said...

I teach 7th grade LA and not high school English, but I know this: it might help you get rid of the content area blahs if you find a piece of lit you love and just go with that for awhile. The thing about the English TEKS is that you can teach them with just about anything. Yes, there are works you have to cover, but you can sneak in others, things you love. When I get stressed and fall out of love with teaching, I bring in something I am passionate about and teach with it: song lyrics, poetry, a suspenseful short story, something by my favorite authors, like Poe or Frost or Stephen King, whatever. Maybe that will help. I hope you get over your illness and get at least caught up enough to escape the drowning feeling that so frequently accompanies teaching.