Saturday, December 20, 2008

So this is my break

I'm still waiting for it to start. You'd think that now that school is out that things would slow down, but they haven't. Last night was the lock-in for my speech team. We had 20 kids show up. I stayed up all night unlike most of my students. I had a very large mountain dew and a couple of cokes during the night which kept me going. It was touch and go for a while but I managed to stay awake by playing scrabble and rollercoaster tycoon. The kids seemed to have a good time and they were all on their way by 7:15 this morning. I drove back to Canyon somewhat bleary-eyed, but made it home safely. I went straight to bed and slept until about 1:00. I took a shower, got dressed and headed to town to do some shopping. I got some gifts for Josh and I bought myself a new pair of shoes and two shirts. I also went to the movies and saw "Twilight." It was nice to just get out and enjoy myself. I wish I could do it more often and I know I should - but I still feel guilty about such excursions. I am still searching for a new mp3 player and I still can't make up my mind. The one that I wanted was not in stock so now I have to rethink my choice. So I'm still without a player.
I could tell that the economy has had some effect this year but the crowds were still present for the most part. I was surprised to find parking at Best Buy though.
After the movie, Josh met me in Amarillo for a late supper at Applebee's. I picked up gift cards for my family since we're not going to Albuquerque this year and I have to mail them. I also need to mail some stuff to Marty. I'll get that done on Monday.
Marty and I are still doing o.k. I still have that sense of a barrier but that's nothing new. I'm just dealing and trying not to think about it too much. I'm to the point that if it works out, that's great. If not, I'll still survive. I can't make others love me no matter how much I may love them. Marty will get there or he won't. I just have to accept the way things are right now and appreciate the fact that he's at least taken a small step towards a possible future by opening up to dating again.
Well, I'm going to head to bed. I'm ready for a good night's sleep.


Leann said...

It sounds like you have a very healthy perspective on your relationship with Marty.

Summer said...

Guard your heart fiercely.

Terri said...

Have a good break and a great Christmas and New Years!