Monday, February 14, 2011

Crappy Valentine’s Day

This day is so much less disappointing when you’re single.  At least there are no expectations when you’re not in a relationship.  I didn’t even get a text message from Matthew.  I sent him a card via school mail, but I don’t know if he got it today.  So I came home from school and then headed to Amarillo to pick up a toner cartridge for my printer.  I had a $10 off coupon but it still cost $60.  Then I was going to call in my dinner at Olive Garden, but they couldn’t have anything ready for another hour.  So much for that plan.  So instead I went to Walmart, got a very large bottle of wine, picked up some Taco Villa and had a quiet dinner for one – alone.  I’ve finished my first glass of wine and planning on a second shortly. 

My capstone exam opened this morning and I was pleasantly surprised that the questions were relatively straight-forward and nothing too complex.  I thought I would have a difficult time choosing three, but I had a more difficult time narrowing it down.  I will have to rethink one of my topic choices since I realize that I’ve already written an extensive paper on one of them.  I started researching one of the topics today.  I should continue that tonight, but I’m in a funk and not feeling up to it.  Of course I’m also on my second glass of wine right now.  Maybe I can write an awesome paper while a little tipsy.

I’m just ready for this day to be over.  Valentine’s day shouldn’t be a big deal, but I was hoping Matthew might throw me a bone.  So much for hope. 

2 comments:

Patti said...

I'm sorry your Valentine's Day sucked. I was on the phone for an hour or so with another friend in pretty much the same boat - relationship recently ended (or not, don't you hate the uncertainty?) because he's being a relationship-sabotaging dweeb.

Personally, I forgot it was Valentine's Day....

But I must tell you, this sentence - "Maybe I can write an awesome paper while a little tipsy" - was REALLY funny.

:D

63mago said...

You plan on glasses of wine - :) I just take them as they come ...
It's Thursday, now, things look different.
May I say something?
Give Matthew a nice kick and do not connect your life with his. If he wants to be in a serious relationship with you he'll will come back. All this uncertain limbo is only unsatisfying, kills your productivity and makes bad mood. So I think Matthew should get his things sorted and then, and only then, he can knock at your door. And then you deceide whether you want to see him of not. If he's unable to come to a decision, so you deceide and others have to accept.