Monday, September 17, 2007

Satiated and not

Dinner was good. I had the petite sirloin (6 oz.) with corn and a loaded baked potato. I also had a salad. I was glad I didn't have to cook. I remembered just before going to dinner that tonight was open house at Josh's school. I went there after dinner and met all but one of his teachers. They all said that Josh was doing well in their classes. Now I'm full and I don't have any homework to do. I'm relaxing in my easy chair and watching t.v. Sure, I should be cleaning my house, but if you've read my blog for any length of time, you know that I'm not going to. I really hate cleaning. I don't mind deep cleaning, but I just don't have time to go there. I don't see the point in trying to tidy up when it's not going to last. I think I'll make a small compromise and at least start the dishwasher tonight.

I love it when my friend Andrew comments. O.k. I like it when anyone comments, but Andrew always seems to make my day. I'm glad that he is such a faithful reader and enjoys this boring blog of mine. He likes my "normal" life. It's funny because I don't often think I have a "normal" life. My version of that would have me married with a husband around to help with all those annoying things that I hate dealing with... like inspections stickers, the yard, and fixing things. Yeah - I work, I come home, rest, etc... but often it's just routine. I guess we're never satisfied with the lives we have, huh? We always seem to want something more or different.

I like my job, but I don't love it. I try to do a good job as a teacher, but I don't always put absolutely everything into it. I try to stay ahead of the game and be prepared, but I can't say it's my passion. I got into it because I honestly didn't know what else I could do. I started out as a music business major. I couldn't handle the business classes and I didn't want to be a band director. I wasn't really talented enough to make it as a professional musician so I decided to change majors. I got my degree in teaching and managed teaching junior high for five years before I'd had enough. I liked my job as a yearbook associate for the most part except for the sales part and the salary. I liked being creative. I went back to teaching out of necessity and so far it's been good. Overall I like the school that I'm at. The kids are good and for the most part they're appreciative which is nice.

I still am not sure that this is what I want to do for the rest of my life. Maybe I'm just restless. I still think about getting my master's degree in library science, but I haven't gone beyond thinking about it. I don't know if I'm putting up my own road blocks or not. The thing is that our current librarian at the school is going to retire in another two years or so. If I went ahead and started my degree I would almost be guaranteed a job. She seems to like me and I could somewhat "intern" there as I work on my degree. My problem is the time and money right now. Do I really want to add more on my plate?

I don't know. I guess I'll just keep thinking about it for now. I do a lot of that. Lots of thinking. I guess I should start more doing.


marykay said...

This gave me a laugh. First I hear ya on the cleaning thing it will still be there tomorrow and on having a husband to do the inspection sticker, fixing things etc. etc. they don't always work out that way. Enjoy your life now go back to school if you can isn't that what student loans are for? Keep writing!

Andrew said...

I wish you would get that masters. I can see you being a kick ass librarian. I know how you feel when saying that about always wanting more. I tend to get caught up in my own problems and don't smell the roses so to speak. Yes, I struggle on a daily basis, but I don't have the rigors of raising a child or working on top of that. I admire people that can handle a "normal" life such as you. Keep inspiring me and you know I will always read. Have a great day today and don't work too hard. Your friend,


The Cheshire Cat said...

That would be awesome if you could get your Masters. I am sure you would make a wonderful librarian!

Oh, and I am with ya on the cleaning stuff! I HATE IT!