Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Self-Medicating

I had a drink for the first time in I don't know how long. It was just one of those days. I know some people might not understand how a flat tire is a tragedy. Maybe it was just one of those things that ends up being the tip of the ice berg. It wasn't so much the tire itself, but the fact that I hate being single and having nobody to call on. It's also the fact that today I spent almost $500 on tires and new brake pads and I have no idea how to pay for it. It's the fact that I asked Josh to pay for some of his expenses this month because of being short on money and I felt bad about it. It's because my house is a mess and I have no energy when I get home from school. It's because I feel as though I'm not accomplishing anything at school.

As I cooked dinner tonight, I had a bloody mary. So sue me. I haven't drank in months. I came home in a bit of a foul mood. I thought I was getting docked a full day for being gone even though I only needed a substitute 1st & 2nd period today. I got back to school by 12:30, which was 30 minutes before my next class. If I were going to be docked a full day, I would have just stayed home and worked there. I asked my principal about it and luckily he said that I only needed to take 1/2 a day. I was relieved.

Now I have to figure out which bills to pay this month. I also need to tidy up the house since the cable guy is coming out to fix our internet issue of not accessing certain pages. I hope it gets fixed. I have to make some substitute plans for tomorrow afternoon since I have to go to CPR training at noon tomorrow.

I'm sure I'll be going to bed early tonight. Of course I always say that and end up going to bed later than planned. Tonight, however, I'm already pretty tired. Well, that's all the updates for today. Back to regularly scheduled boring days tomorrow.

9 comments:

Terroni said...

Sometimes...you just need a drink.

mago said...

Yeah.

marykay said...

I remember being in similar situation single with a teenager in band. It is soo expensive people don't understand! I myself self-medicated many a night but, it does get better just takes a little while. This too shall pass.

Susanlee said...

*hug* I hate days like that. Last weekend I went through 2 bottles of wine trying to hide from money stresses. Trust me, I *know* how disasterous a flat tire can be. If you need anything,you've got my number.

mago said...

I think a "hug" is not in-appropriate now.

Zap said...

I'm willing to throw $5 your way, with the power of the internet, we could be on our way to at least several hundred.

Any takers?

Mrs.Dolce said...

Oh sweety. I hear ya!
I was in those situations so many times.
We now need to pay $2000 to our car insurance due to someone hitting out car and not leaving a note with their details, few days later we get another scract. Excess needs to be paid by us.
Life san really such sometimes.

So the hell with it, enjoy your drink!!!

Andrew said...

Yeah, sometimes you just need a drink. Just don't have twenty like I tend to do. Oh, I so wish I lived near you. I would be chomping at the bit to help a friend. I am a master at changing tires as well. Take care of yourself and I need to give you my phone number so we can talk again. Take care, hon. Miss you when you don't write.

Patrick Goodman said...

I think that this is one of those situations that just kind of calls for a drink. I mean, it's not an option for me, but you don't have my issues on this subject.

If there's anything I can do to help, just let me know.