Marty Update

Got a call from Marty today. He worried me a bit because he left a message on my cell phone that said, "I have news. Give me a call." This was at 12:30 this afternoon. Him calling me in the afternoon with news is not a good sign. So I call him back. And he doesn't answer. Now I worry more. But the news isn't all bad and may actually be pretty good in some respects.
He's heading to Alaska early. Probaly end of March. Then he'll come back to the mainland and go to his school in California for a month, and then back up to Alaska. Good news is that because he's going early, he'll get out early. He may return as early as March-May next year instead of June. So he's still coming down here to bring his truck. He'll be here in the early part of March depending on how much leave he has. I'd still like to go see him in Feb. but given that I STILL don't have a child support check, it's not looking like a possibility. I know I'm going on about this, but it is really creating a problem for me financially. I should have known better than to think that I'd get it regularly. It seems every 6 or 7 months or so, something happens and it's not paid on time. I just wish that they would let me know it was going to be late so I could plan for it. I could work around it if I knew. I asked them nicely in a letter I sent this summer to let me know if it was going to be late. I'm still dependent on it right now. And having to get another car will mean I will really be dependent on it. It's not like I take the money and go buy myself jewelry and stuff. I really use it for bills, house payment, food, music lessons, reeds, hair cuts, shoes, etc. I truly admire those men out there that take their fatherhood responsibly. It took a good 5 years to even start receiving child support. And then it was haphazard as to when I'd get it. This was when it was only $120 a month. I didn't even ask for an increase in child support until 2003 when Josh was 12. It would be nice if it could be taken out of his paycheck, but since he's self-employed, I guess I'll get it when I get it. It all comes down to that dependence thing. I'm not very good at that. It's a problem in my relationships. I have a hard time depending on others because it seems I'm constantly let down. Marty has surprised me, but I'm still wary. Sometimes baggage really sucks.