Friday, November 24, 2006


I feel restless tonight. I've been steadily doing laundry today but not much in the way of house cleaning. I cleaned all the pet beds because the vet said that Tux's disease was contagious to other cats. Although the other two aren't showing signs and they have a hearty appetite, I wanted to be cautious.

I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm just sitting and watching t.v. being depressed. I'm wearing the same clothes as yesterday that I slept in. I haven't gotten out of the house at all. I have nowhere to go. I have no friends to call up and visit. I'm going to be short on money this month because of the vet bill so I can't go anywhere that would cost money. Josh has gone to a friend's house and I really feel alone at this moment. Yes, I miss my cat and that's part of it, but I hate the fact that I really am alone.

I do appreciate my wonderful blog friends that have left comments. I also appreciate my ex for calling me as well as Patrick.

I used to have these fantasies about leaving my life and starting new somewhere else. Of course I never had the gumption to act on it and have been tied here because of Josh. Is it weird though as an adult to sometimes wish you could run away from home?


Anonymous said...

Hang in there. When you least expect it, something wonderful will happen. I know. Expect miracles.

Andrew said...

***HUGS*** Just don't go live in your car like I tend to do when I need a break, okay? ;-)

Summer said...

After I read your blog entry this morning, I read my horoscope. It said that I might feel like ditching my responsibilities, jumping bail and declaring myself free today. I do.

I know exactly how you feel.

Annabel said...

Thanks for the smile this morning Jonathon. No, I have no plans to live in my car.

Anonymous... I have no expectations of miracles or otherwise - maybe my pessism is shining through these days. Certainly good things have come when I least expect it, but usually I only recognize those things in hindsight after I've lost them.

Summer... that's why I don't read horoscopes any more! And knew you would understand how I was feeling. But this too shall soon pass. I just need to discover patience one of these days.

Susanlee said...

i frequently want to run away from home...I don't really know where home is..or where I would go to get away from that feeling. So I stay.