Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Still unfocused

Maybe it's the time of year, but I feel unfocused. I'm sitting here at lunch with a million things I could be doing and not doing a single one of them. But that's good news for my readers since now they will have a new blog entry to read.... or not, I guess it depends on what I write about.

I have papers to grade and I'm not grading them. I have lessons to prepare and I don't know where to begin. I am going to have my observation next week and I'm not even close to being ready. I'm not worried about it. One of the assistant principals is my observer and he's a very easy-going guy. I'll be teaching a debate lesson so it should be interesting.

It's getting cold here and I hate it. I HATE BEING COLD. Did I say that loud enough? I know my gas bill and electricity bill is going to skyrocket, but I don't care. My room at school is cold as well. The airconditioners aren't on... but the fans are and it's blowing the cold air from outside in my room which makes perfect sense in the winter. We are supposed to get a cold front in tonight with the possibility of snow tomorrow. I am not looking forward to it. I only like snow when I can stay at home curled up in front of the fireplace with nowhere to go and nothing to do. But mother nature never asked for my input on the matter.

Well, I've got another 30 minutes to sit and think about the things I should be doing. I really wish I could take a nap. I didn't sleep well last night. Tonight is RCIA class which I may or may not go to. I really want to, but I'm finding that my time is being stretched rather thin lately. I have to give Josh a parallel parking lesson when I get home, make supper, maybe go to class, then go to the store to the stuff for tomorrow's lunch. After that I have to prepare the stromboli so I can just put it in the over during 3rd period tomorrow. (One of the home-ec. teachers is my car pool buddy and I'm using the kitchen over there) At least I have laundry done and most of the dishes so I don't have to worry about that.

I haven't decided if I'm going to put up a Christmas tree this year. A large part of me is thinking that it's really just a big hassle and I don't want to mess with it. Another part of me thinks I should just suck it up and get into the Christmas spirit. We're not going to be spending Christmas here so I don't see the point really. I do love my tree and all my music-themed ornaments, but it's a lot of work that I just don't have time for. Maybe I'll compromise by just decorating around the fireplace. I don't know.. one more thing to consider.

This time of year is just a bad time in general. The month of November has been historically full of bad news. My best friend in the 8th grade died of a brain tumor in 1983. My mother died three years ago. Tux (the cat) died. Despite it having mine & Josh's birthdays, I've found that the month of November generally sucks. I think I'm ready for it to be over.

Well, I better go figure out something to do to at least be somewhat productive today... or not.


Susanlee said...

I wish I could help you decorate your tree. The obsessive compulsive in me really enjoys that sort of thing. I always feel more "in the spirit" after I have my tree up, even if I was feeling Scroogish before. Have you heard of anyone doing "A Christmas Carol?"

Rebecca said...

November tends to be a month of tragedy for my family, too. I am always a little unsettled until its finally over.
And just for the record, my vote is to put up the tree. A house just NEEDS a tree to add that Christmas-y spirit. Blessings to you and yours.