Saturday, September 04, 2010

A Dilemma

I tried calling Matthew today since I went up to the school to do some work.  No answer.  I texted him.  No response.  Of course he could be resting because he’s not feeling well – though I’d think even at noon one would be awake.  Of course he could be feeling better and is just out and about.  The point is that I have no idea and it is still frustrating that he doesn’t respond.  If this was the first time, I’d probably let it go and chalk it up to something is just keeping him busy.  My problem is that my speculation assumes the worst.  It is almost as though he has a secret life.  I just don’t know what his interest level is with me.  I don’t know if he’s still playing the field a bit or if I’m the only prospect.  I don’t know if work just keeps him that busy.  I don’t know if there’s something else I’m not aware of.  And for a person that likes to be “in the know,” it is very frustrating. 

So here’s the dilemma.  I got another eharmony response and since it is the free weekend I can respond back if I so choose.  Though I really like Matthew and would love pursue something with him, I have no idea where I stand at the moment.  When I’m with him, it seems that we hit it off well and he’s quite interested.  Problem is that I don’t see him much at all.  So do I respond to the other guy since I’m not sure or do I hope for the best with Matthew? 

In other news I hurt my foot today by dropping an English book on it.  You must understand that the English book is quite large around 1200 pages and very heavy.  It was so painful that I said the F-word and thought I would pass out for a few minutes.  Luckily I don’t think I broke any bones, but it is quite sore and swelling up nicely.

I got some papers graded but got to the point again where I couldn’t concentrate any more.  I figured that I might as well go home and start on my grad school homework.  Of course now that I’m here, I’m blogging instead of working.  I’m even thinking of napping before I get started. 


Diana said...

You don't "know" me but I have been following you for awhile (through Andrew/Jon's site)I have been cringing every time you say Matthew hasn't called or hasn't answered. It seems to me he is either not that into you or maybe he's married. Whatever the reason, he isn't going to much trouble to contact you. That isn't normal, especially for a new relationship. Of course, if you really like him then leave that door open but I wouldn't put my life on hold if I were you. Respond to the E harmony guy and see where it leads. It can't hurt.
Best of luck to you.

Leann said...

I agree with Diane. Why put your life on hold for a 'maybe'. You are worth the attention and admiration a man has to give you so go find it instead of waiting around for it. I think Matthew is a putz and has no idea what he's missing. Keep looking and keep your options open.


Patti said...

yeah ... I hate giving relationship advice, because I'm not there, I don't really know you, and I definitely don't know him....

but if I was in the beginning stages of a relationship, he wouldn't be fulfilling my expectations. hope that's OK to say, and if you're different than me, that's totally fine!

Annabel said...

I know that Matthew isn't married, but not certain that he is still "playing the field" a bit. But I did go ahead reply to the other eharmony guy and we'll see if he responds.
I agree that I'm certainly worth more attention - still not sure if he's a putz or if something unknown is going on... but definitely keeping options open.
I agree - I often wonder if my "expectations" are too high, but I'm thinking that responding only every few days isn't a good sign no matter how busy life may get.

Thank you all for your comments and thoughts. They are appreciated!

Anonymous said...

Why not meet somebody else?