Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Certifiably Insane

O.k. maybe I am. At least that's what Marty is thinking. I guess I'm still being a drama queen making things more tragic than what they are. And I admit I've not been the best when talking to him. I've had an attitude issue and not been appreciative of him when he does call. Don't get me wrong. There has been a definite difference in some things with him, but I'm going to attribute it to stress and nothing more. O.k. I'm going to try to do that. Let's do keep it honest.
Here is my solemn vow:
I will take Marty at his word and believe that he loves me and that hasn't changed.
I will have the hope that we will end up in love and live happily ever after.
I will enjoy the last few days that I'll have with him and not get upset over the fact that he's not going to come to Amarillo.
I will stop crying over all of this.

And this is just for Marty... kind of an "I told you so."

annabel_lee_tx (9:32:43 PM): I'm serious though... I can be a hard person to love
mullog (9:32:57 PM): that's ok
annabel_lee_tx (9:33:01 PM): I may not be worth the effort
mullog (9:33:08 PM): I think I can handle it
annabel_lee_tx (9:33:22 PM): can I quote you on that later?
mullog (9:33:30 PM): yes
annabel_lee_tx (9:33:52 PM): you may eat those words
mullog (9:34:55 PM): words are less fattening then pizza


Summer said...

Your tears are deserved, so don't deprive yourself of them. It's an outlet for you. Therapeutic. I don't understand his reasoning for not seeing you before he leaves. I see a red flag waving in front of my face. You are a young woman with so much ahead of you and I am of the opinion that you shouldn't cut yourself off from the world. You need to start dating again. Don't lose a year of your life over a man that is not willing to give you a few days of his. If it doesn't feel right, it probably isn't.

luxiva said...

summer is right!

Andrew said...

what Summer said also. This just makes me mad.