I don't know what to write

It's Wednesday and it seems like the days are just dragging. I want to go see the Harry Potter movie but I promised to go with my friend Kirsten and she doesn't want to go until Friday. I took half a sleeping pill last night which helped especially when storms came through around 3:00 a.m., but again it took me a long time to wake up this morning. I didn't go to Hereford yet again. Maybe tomorrow, but no promises. I watched t.v., read blogs, read a book and again was a total bum once again. I'm almost feeling guilty. I went to band at 3:00. Today was better... I could at least play more notes today than yesterday, but the music we played today was a bit easier. It was raining when we left. It's one of those nice mild summer rains - not a downpour, but a nice shower. I have the back door open so I can hear and smell it right now. I'd be sitting out in it if it weren't for my laptop.

I have to go to the grocery store today. I had the last of my frozen dinners and am going to need something to get by for a few days. Luckily, I'm going out to eat tomorrow night. Dad is in town and he called to see if I wanted to go out. Free dinner? Of course I do!

I feel a bit worthless right now. I need something to feel productive, but at the same time I don't feel like doing anything. I'm fed up with house cleaning. I'm getting short on cash so I can't go shopping. I've run out of rosary centers so I can't do that either. I do have a book I'm reading, but for the most part, I'm just sitting my recliner doing nothing. It's times like these I wish I had more friends. Yes, my friend Kirsten is in town, but she's going out with her parents tonight. My friend Pam is still at the hospital with her daughter and she has another crisis going on with a broken pipe in her house that caused major flooding. And I'm sitting here having my own pity party. I really need to get over it.