Thursday, August 31, 2006
Tomorrow is Friday, thank goodness. Josh has a game tomorrow night. I think we're going to go to Albuquerque this weekend. I feel kind of obligated to go. We haven't been since March. I'm not sure I can afford it, but I'll probably go anyways. I'll have to find a Church to go to. I can't miss Mass. Luckily we're out of school on Monday. So that means I won't get anything done around the house. But next week will be nice. I don't have school on Wednesday because I'm going to a meeting.
Josh got the lawn mowed this evening. Sure enough, as soon as I go to Walmart and get a new spark plug and a spark plug socket thing, the lawnmower starts without a problem. Oh well, the front is done. The back yard is still a jungle.
And now it's bed time. I'm tired. Maybe I'll write something more exciting tomorrow. Or not. Stay tuned.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
My yard is just pitiful. With all the rain we've had, the weeds are about two feet tall. (Gee, I wonder why I'm having allergies) I know the City is going to get on to me soon. Josh started mowing the lawn tonight. But of course... once again, the lawnmower quits working. I call my brother and he tells me things on the phone thinking that I have a clue about spark plugs and what-not.
"You probably just need to remove the spark plug and clean it."
"I don't even know where the spark plug is."
"It's on the front of the mower."
"O.k., how do I remove it?"
"You should have a spark plug socket in your tool box."
"What does it look like? Here, talk to Josh, he's the one that will have to do it."
Maybe it's because I'm so miserable, but I don't have the patience to pretend that I am of a mechanically sound mind. Yeah, I've bragged of having the knowledge to put oil and anti-freeze in my car. I can change the air filter and headlight bulbs. But that's the extent of my knowledge. Where's a man when I need one? I am not even asking for a boyfriend. How about a boy-friend... just friend that could help me out once in a while? Is that too much to ask for?
Well, I took a tylenol p.m. and hopefully that will at least just knock me out for a while so I won't feel so awful. Sorry for the pity party today. I hope to be back to my old self soon.
Oh, I did put my letters in the mail today. We'll see what gets done about the speech class at Josh's school. I'll keep you informed. I'll post the letter later. It's on my school computer.
Well, time to get ready for bed.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
In other news, I felt drained today, but a little better. I'm still fighting something. I'm giving a test to my interp & debate classes tomorrow and my comm. app. class is going to be watching a movie. Hopefully I can get caught up on all the paperwork that has accumulated on my desk.
I need to go to the store and get a few things. Josh isn't home yet. He has musical tryouts this afternoon. I hope he does well. I better get off my butt and get moving before I take a nap in this chair.
Monday, August 28, 2006
I guess I need to keep some hand sanitizer in my room. I'm sure this is because of coming back to school after a break and I haven't gotten my immunity up.
I don't have a lot to share today. It was just another day at school. I don't have to drive this week except on Thursday. We may be adding a third person to our carpool and I may only end up driving twice a week at most. That would be great. I need to save some money on gas.
Well, I'm going to go take some tylenol and veg in front of the t.v. for a while.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
I got up early on Saturday, took a shower, took Josh to school at 6:30 for his march-a-thon, then I finished getting ready and drove up to Borger. I went to an annual speech meeting up there and attended a few sessions. It was interesting and I got some good information. Then I headed back to Amarillo for the Congress.
I got home around 8:30 and crashed around 10:30. This morning I decided I didn't want to get up for early Mass so I went to the one at 11:15. Afterwards, I came home and got Josh so he could have a vocal lesson to get ready for musical tryouts. His piano teacher also teaches voice. She was impressed with his singing ability.
Then I got home, made some lunch and sat in front of the t.v. I just couldn't keep my eyes open and so around 3:00 I took a nap. Josh left to go to the movies at 4:30. I had to pick him and his friends up at 6:30 so I finally got up shortly after he left. I sat in front of the t.v. some more. I finally started doing the dishes. Then I left to go pick the boys up. We got home around 7:00 and I started dinner and now I'm watching the Emmy awards. They just finished a segment with Dick Clark and it was so sad. I'm sure that like many of you, I grew up with American Bandstand. It was one of my favorite shows as a kid. I loved the music and the dancing. Not many people know this about me, but my dream job when I was a kid was to be a dancer or choreographer. I would watch bandstand in my room and dance along with the people. And when it wasn't on, I'd play records and make up dances.
It was very sad to see such an amazing icon that has always been quite youthful appear so old and frail. It's reminding me that I am indeed getting older. I know... I'm still a young pup at 36, but sometimes I feel much older.
Well, I better get busy catching up on stuff here so that I'll be ready for school tomorrow.
Friday, August 25, 2006
I'm already tired, but if I don't watch Monk, I won't see it for a while. But I think I'll go ahead and go to bed early. It's going to be a very long day tomorrow. I have to take Josh to school by 6:30 a.m. and then I have to leave to go to Borger by 7:15 a.m.
Well, I'm heading to bed and I hope that Monk will be on next week so I can watch the final episode of the season.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
I am so very excited about the Eucharistic Congress. I think it is going to be amazing. There is going to be a Cardinal from Rome presiding at our closing Mass. I am quite excited about it. I'm also going to attend a session on beginning apologetics which should be interesting.
But it's going to be a very long couple of days. Friday after school I will head straight up to the Congress and attend the opening liturgy and a concert afterwards. Then on Saturday I'm heading up to Borger for a speech meeting and back to Amarillo at lunch time to go to the session, then have a choir warm up, then participate in the closing Mass. Then I'll be ready for a break. It will be a short one though. We start choir rehearsals for our parish choir next Wednesday and I will be staying after school on Thursdays to work with the speech team members. Our first tournament is now less than a month away.
I have nothing else to report. My life is busy so that's a good thing. I still love being a part of the Catholic Church. And now it's time for bed.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
We must first have our very basic needs of food, water, and shelter. Without those needs being met, we cannot move up to the next level of security. I think my friend Andrew is an excellent example of this. He was at a point where he was basically out of food and money and he thought of resorting to begging in order to satisfy his need. He didn't succumb to it, but it's an excellent example of how one might choose to do something they wouldn't normally do in order to meet those needs.
Next is the need for safety. Generally, as adults we have this. If we have a place to live, locks on our doors and don't live in an area of rampant crime, we generally have a feeling of safety and security. But this also includes financial security. Having a job or some kind of income is a big part of this. Again, Andrew faced not having this need met because of his father's reticence in helping him. But I admire Andrew’s fortitude and courage as he deals with having his needs met. He is finally making some decisions that will help him along that path.
Once these two needs are met, we can move on to social needs. I think this is one of the most crucial. We as humans have the need to love and be loved. We need friendships, and a sense of belonging to other humans. People that don’t have this need met, tend to make bad choices when it comes to relationships. In teenagers, it is often the reason they join gangs. Without the social aspect, people succumb to loneliness and a sense of alienation. For myself, I know that joining the Church has been a big part of meeting this need. I still have issues with my own shyness and lack of friends, but I do have a sense of belonging and have people that I know care about me.
The next level deals with esteem needs. At this level we achieve self-respect and respect for others. We feel confident and valuable. Generally people who have gotten to this point have activities give them a sense of purpose and contribution. We appreciate recognition, but it doesn’t go to our heads when have achieved this at its highest level.
And finally, if we can get to the top, we have self-actualization. At this point we know what our purpose in live is and we’re doing what we were born to do. We are able to accept others at face value, we appreciate the beauty in things, and have meaningful relationships with others. It may take a lot to get there, but it’s not impossible.
For me, I’m not certain where I fall in the scale. I know I have my physical and security needs met. For the most part, I have my social needs met but I think my desire for a relationship is hindering me from the next step. I am trying to let go it, but I think the more I try to do that, the more it comes back at me. So I guess that I need to get through this social level so that I can deal with some of my esteem issues. There are times I feel very confident, but mostly, I am unsure of myself. I tend to have a positive attitude most of the time, but I still question whether or not I’m doing what I’m called to do. But I do hope that some day I am able to get to the point of self-actualization.
Now I just have to think about this when I do make choices. Is my choice going to help me get to higher levels or is it a hindrance?
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Overall, Marty was a really pretty decent guy. I think ultimately, though, he couldn't handle my complexity. I don't claim to be perfect (anymore), but I still think I am a pretty good catch. And the thing with Marty is that he, like many men, has absolutely no idea what he wants. And no, I'm not obsessing. I am quite over him, but I'm just analyzing the choices I've made in the past.
Why did I choose Marty? I had other guys in the picture at the time. I was dating Patrick and still had Steve from Michigan in the picture. But what was it about Marty? It really just felt right. I felt like I could be myself with him. I felt what I thought was real love from him.
My problem is that I wonder if I can really be myself should another opportunity present itself. (I am being optimistic here.) Do we pretend to be simple girls and then deal with those surprise moments of complexity when they hit and hope that the guy doesn't go running? Or are we honest about ourselves and take the risk of not even getting a second date? How much information is too much when it comes to meeting someone? Yes, I'm putting the cart before the horse at the moment but I'm just having some random thoughts at the moment.
Now my brain is tired and I have a bit more work to do before I can head to bed which will be soon. So much for my epiphany. Maybe I'll call it just another thought.
I don't have anything exciting to share. It was a typical day. My classes worked on things, I worked on things, blah, blah, blah. I did have a student help me with some Spanish in my choir music. We have some songs that we haven't practiced much that have Spanish lyrics. I'm getting pretty good at my Latin, however. I can pronounce it at least. I'm not sure what it all means, but it's cool to sing it. Well, gotta head out soon.
Monday, August 21, 2006
Well, it's the start of another busy week. I am now carpooling, but it's my week to drive. I hope that I will see the benefits of less gas soon. Today was a regular day at school. I've decided to continue my lessons on choice and when students didn't want to present their poem/shields that they've worked on to the class, I told them it was their choice and that the highest grade they could get was a 50. I am learning to choose my battles. Tomorrow I'm going to go over my class expectations. I came home right after school and had to go to the grocery store to get cat and dog food among other items. I didn't have time to cook dinner so I picked up McDonald's and scarfed my food down before leaving to go to choir rehearsal. I got home shortly before ten and I'm going to head to bed soon.
Tomorrow is another day at school and Josh has a piano lesson. Wednesday will be my only evening that I have free this week. Thursday is the final choir practice. Friday is the beginning of the Eucharistic Congress and I need to go register right after school since I can't on Saturday morning. There is a mass and and concert on Friday night. Saturday I have to go to Borger for a speech meeting and then leave just before lunch in order to go to the session on apologetics at the Eucharistic Congress. Then I have to be in place by 4:15 to be ready to sing. The closing Mass will likely be well over 2 hours, but I think it will be an amazing service. We are singing some really awesome music and it gives me chills to think about it. And after that, I will crash for the night probably. I know it's a lot on my plate right now, but I am enjoying it.
Now it's time for bed. I want to thank all the wonderful readers and commenters that have stopped by because of Andrew's blog. I appreciate it a great deal.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
I taught a lesson to my Comm. App. Class about the power of choice. I’m not sure how well it went over with them because you know.. well, they’re high school students. But for myself, I’ve been giving it a lot of afterthought. But first, let’s have the lesson shall we?
Your first assignment is to write a statement that starts with “I have to __________.”
You are to fill in the blank with something you feel that you absolutely have to do. (And no cheating… something like breathing is a given.)
Next, you write this statement: “I can’t ___________________.”
Go ahead and do it. Don’t worry, I’m not going to check your answers. (But if you do feel the need to write about this in a blog, that’s cool.)
If you’re needing help, here’s examples.
“I have to work.”
“I can’t lose weight.”
Let’s talk about choice. Almost everything… and I do mean everything in our lives is a choice. Sometimes it’s a hard pill to swallow, but most of the time it is true. Take your first statement and mark out the word “have” and replace it with the word “choose.”
“I choose to work.” I really don’t have to work. It is my choice to work. I do have the choice to not work. Of course, there are consequences for that choice… but it is indeed still a choice. I even have choices in the type of job I have. I really don’t have to be teacher.
Now let’s take the second statement. Mark out the word “can’t” and replace it with “don’t want to.”
“I don’t want to lose weight.” That is more true than saying I can’t. I could lose weight if I wanted to, but honestly, I don’t want to do what it takes to lose it. I could walk every night and change my eating habits. But since I choose to not do those things… it means I really don’t want to do it.
So that’s the lesson I discussed with my class. Now, hindsight is everything, and so last night I was in a reflective state and I started thinking about all my “I have to” and “I can’t” statements I’ve made.
Some simple statements: “I have to pay bills.” “I have to go to Mass every week” “I have to make dinner.” Honestly, I choose to do all those things. I don’t have to pay my bills. I could take the money and go shopping instead. Of course, then I have to face the consequences of that choice and have even more bad credit than I already do have. I could have my electricity, water, and gas shut off. But it’s my choice.
Now for some I can’ts: “I can’t get a date.” “I can’t get my graduate degree.” If I am honest about these, they are really choices as well. “I don’t want to get a date.” What getting a date might mean are things I am not willing to do. I might have to lose weight to be more attractive. I might have to go out more to places I don’t want to go. I might have to step outside of my box and be less shy. I could get my graduate degree if I made the effort to take the GRE, apply for financial aid, and cut back on all my expenses. But that means I would have to give up more of my already limited time and money and I am choosing to not do that right now.
What this boils down to is that if we don’t like they way something is in our lives, we have the choice and power to change it. If we go around making “I can’t” and “I have to” statements then we are acting like victims. We are telling the world that we have no choices… but in reality we do.
There are five things we absolutely have to do in order to live. We must eat, drink, breathe, sleep, and go to the bathroom. Everything else is a choice. We can change what we want. And if you’re saying “Well, I can’t change so-in-so because they make my life miserable… etc. You’re right. You can’t change anyone else’s behavior except your own. You can change how you react to so-in-so or whether or not you even associate with them. Eleanor Roosevelt once said “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”
So remember that when we don’t like what is happening to us, we have the power to change things through our actions or our reactions. And we really have no excuse to complain about things… though it certainly won’t stop us. Just remember that attitude is everything. We can choose to laugh in the face of adversity or we can act like victims.
I was in a bad marriage a few years ago. I was depressed, gained weight, and felt like I had no control over my life. I had thought about divorce at times, but I thought that I’d be worse off because I would be ruined financially. So I stayed in the marriage and that was my choice. I finally got to a point where I realized I couldn’t be happy if I stayed in the marriage. But in hindsight, I realize that I finally made a choice. For a long time I stayed because of the financial stability and health insurance despite my unhappiness. Eventually those things were taken away when my husband lost his job. So I decided to make the choice to be happy by getting out of the marriage. Sure, I had to face some fears of losing my house and managing financially, but I did it anyways. It was one of the best decisions of my life. I'm not going to blame my ex for the problems in our marriage. It came down to my choice to accept things or change them and I finally took the steps to change them. And that is why we are still friends. I got to a point where I accepted my own responsibility in the failure.
So instead of telling ourselves that we have to do this or that remember that we are choosing to do this or that. We should think about why we are making that choice. Even if we don’t like it, is there a good reason for it? And instead of saying we can’t do things, we should really be saying that we don’t want to do them. The key is figuring out and owning up to the why. Eventually that may lead to acceptance and taking responsibility.
Perhaps this lesson has given you something to consider. I’ve been thinking about it a great deal. I’m going to leave you with a few inspirational quotes that I found. "Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved." William Jennings Bryan
"Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved." William Jennings Bryan
"Any change, any loss, does not make us victims. Others can shake you, surprise you, disappoint you, but they can't prevent you from acting, from taking the situation you're presented with and moving on. No matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation, you can always do something. You always have a choice and the choice can be power." Blaine Lee
If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is a compromise." Robert Fritz
"Because you are in control of your life. Don't ever forget that. You are what you are because of the conscious and subconscious choices you have made." Barbara Hall
***Note: The lesson on choice came from LouAnn Johnson’s book Teaching Outside the Box.
Friday, August 18, 2006
I ordered Thai takeout for dinner tonight as I was too tired to cook. Now I'm waiting for Monk and Psych to come on.
Oh, I emailed Josh's speech sponsor and let her know about the upcoming meeting next weekend. She seemed appreciative of it.
Now I could really use some chocolate. I wish I had something. Oh well, I guess I really don't need it. It's almost 8:00 so I'm going to go watch Monk.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
I've got a few things to do tonight, but I think I'm going to take it easy for a while until supper is done which will be in about an hour.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
My day was good. I love my schedule so it wasn't too bad at all. I have a student aide during my 1st conference period, so she can help with some basic tasks. I have some great kids in my interp and debate classes. If everyone in the classes goes to tournaments, I potentially have a team of 35 students. I know that not all can go every time, but I should have a fair amount at each tournament. I am looking forward to the year.
Now on the bad news front, Josh is in the competitive speech class at his school and he doesn't even have a teacher. The librarian is going to be their sponsor, but he has nobody to actually teach him what he needs to know in class. Of course I'll help him, but I am really disappointed in the school system. They are really killing the program. That's one of the reasons why I chose not to apply for the job. They don't seem to care whether or not they are successful in speech. Although they do have a teacher that is teaching the comm. app. (basic speech) classes, he is also coaching soccer so they felt he couldn't do that and travel with the speech team... which is true. I just don't understand why they didn't hire a full time speech teacher that only teaches comm. app. Well... I do know why. They are trying to get the kids to take the class in the 8th grade which is a horrible idea. The class was designed for upper level students so they could be prepared for job or college interviews and dealing with people in the world. 8th & 9th graders are at an age that they can't comprehend the importance of the class. I also know that the way it is taught in junior high is NOT the way it is supposed to be taught. It is very frustrating.
O.k. I'm done ranting for now. I don't have time to go on as I need to at least read through the information that I need to cover tomorrow.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Today was another long day. I got to school by 8:15 after stopping at Walmart first. I got busy with things to do and before I knew it, it was lunch time. A local church made hamburgers for us, but it was kind of slow. They kept running out of them and we had to wait for more. My room is neat and tidy. I have roll sheets ready to go. My largest class has fourteen students. My smallest has eight. I did find out some very good news, however. We are getting the $2000 raise. I will also get my stipend, and the step on the ladder pay. I figured that I'll be making about $276 more a month than last year (after taxes). Well, at least that will go towards a car payment.
I drove home in a torrential rainstorm. I hydroplaned a little while driving home and had to slow down considerably in some spots. I picked up Josh from a friend's house and then we went to eat. We went to a local Mexican food restaurant and it was quite delicious. I was home for about 30 minutes before I had to leave to go to Mass. Today is the celebration of the feast of the Assumption of Mary and it is a Holy Day of obligation which means we are required to go to Mass.
I got home around 8:15 and I changed the sheets on my bed, took a shower and now I'm getting ready for bed. Although I probably don't need it, I will take half a tylenol p.m. just to ensure sleep instead of thoughts about the first day of school tomorrow. Josh tells me this afternoon that he has to print 38 pages of his English journal to turn in tomorrow. (Advanced classes have work over the summer.) Unfortunately, my printer isn't working very well. I finally was able to print it, but it's hot pink. Next, he tells me that he needs a notebook to put it in. I scrounge around in the garage and I locate a notebook. But now, I can't find a hole punch. If he would have just mentioned this BEFORE today, I could have brought everything he needed home. Why do kids wait until the LAST minute before they spring these things on you?
Well, it's getting late. I'm going to head to bed and I'll be sure to report on my day tomorrow. Stay tuned.
Monday, August 14, 2006
We had inservice this morning and we at least had a fairly entertaining speaker so it wasn't as drab as it usually is. But then the superintendent got up to speak and he's a nice guy, but just not a very exciting or really motivating speaker. I had a good time sitting with the band people. I'm going to have to make an effort to hang out with them more. They're pretty fun and I feel more of a sense of belonging with them. When it was finished, I went to McDonald's to get some lunch and then took it back to the school to eat.
I got the border put up around the material covering my bulletin board. I also got my mini-refrigerator brought up to my storage room. I started working on my filing cabinet and sorted a box of materials that I had. I'm still not very popular with the business teachers as they still seem upset about moving the stuff out of the storage room. I know it's a pain, but honestly a great deal of the stuff in there is obsolete. I've even volunteered my speech team kids to help move things out. I don't know when it will happen, but I'll remain hopeful.
Well, I'm just about to head out to take Josh back to the school for a band thing and then I have to go to choir rehearsal. It's going to be a long night... but not as long as tomorrow night. The day before school starts is always a long night.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
I really enjoy entertaining and I wish I could do it more often. When I was married, I loved having company over for dinner or a party or something and I loved to make things for people. I love cooking (but hate the cleaning part) and I have a few favorite recipes I tend to use over and over, but I could always use some more.
So here's my meme: In my last post, I gave you one of my favorite recipes. If you are reading this post and have a blog, you are hereby tagged to do the following:
1. Post your favorite recipe in your blog.
2. Leave a comment here indicating you have done so (and give us a link if you don't officially log in). When all is said and done we should all have some new recipes to try.
3. And as a continuation of this meme... if you try any of the recipes you get from this, you should write a blog entry on it.
So get going... now you have no excuses to not blog because you have nothing to write about.
Today's agenda is to paint the mistake areas in Josh's bathroom, clear the stuff in the extra bedroom, clean the kitchen & living room. I have about 3 1/2 hours to get it done. I also will do some laundry, but it's not at a crucial point yet. Well, I've procrastinated enough.
Here's the Cashew chicken recipe. I'm posting it exactly as it is in my recipe book, but here's a tip: I usually buy the prepacked boneless chicken at Walmart that is 1.65 pounds. I have found that if I double the sauce ingredients, it comes out just right. I serve it with steamed rice.
1/3 cup chicken broth
1 tablespoon cornstarch
3 tablespoons soy sauce
1/2 teaspoon ground ginger
1/2 red pepper sauce
2 tablespoons vegetable oil
1 pound boneless, skinless chicken breast halves, cut crosswise into 1/2 inch strips
1 large green bell pepper, cut into 3/4 inch pieces
1 medium onion, sliced
1 can (8 ounces) sliced water chestnuts, drained
2/3 cup dry-roasted cashews
2 green onions, sliced
1. Mix broth, cornstarch, soy sauce, ginger and pepper sauce.
2. Heat wok or 12-inch skillet over high heat. Add 1 teaspoon of the oil; rotate wok to coat side. Add chicken stir-fry about 4 minutes or until no longer pink in center. Remove chicken from wok keep warm.
3. Add remaining 1 tablespoon oil to wok; rotate wok to coat side. Add bell pepper, onion and water chestnuts; stir-fry 2 minutes.
4. Add cornstarch mixture to wok. Cook and stir about 1 minute or until sauce thickens. Stir in chicken and cashews. Garnish with green onion.
I had some vivid dreams last night and I dreamed that a friend of mine from high school had died. It really worried me so I got up to find his phone number. I don't know if it is still his number, but I am going to call him today and make sure everything is o.k.
I need to start cleaning my house for my company, but I just don't want to. There's nothing like waiting until the last minute to get things done. Maybe I'll go back to bed. I've read all the blogs that have updated. I commented on a friends blog. I've checked my emails. Now what?
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Now I'm watching t.v. and just taking it easy. I am forcing myself to clean my house tomorrow, however. I invited my dad & his girlfriend over for dinner. I will make cashew chicken. I need my house to be clean before school starts so I can start on the right foot. Of course it won't stay that way, but at least I can get a good start.
Friday, August 11, 2006
During my brief lunch break, I ran to walmart to try to find some border material to finish my bulletin board. I didn't find anything that I loved so I think I'll run up to Amarillo tomorrow. I didn't have time to eat before going to a pointless meeting at the administration building. It was the same old stuff... bloodborn pathogen training, district policies and such. After the meeting, I went to my old room to clear stuff off of my old computer and have my tables moved. I had some personal tables that I brought up last year since I didn't have enough and extras couldn't be located. Then I went back to my room to tidy up and I took a few pictures of my room.
Once home, I immediately heated up the leftover pizza because I was starving. Now I'm waiting for Monk to come on. I will probably go to bed a decent hour as I'm already quite tired. I need to remember to start taking my vitamins in the morning.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Today we went on home visits. Groups of teachers went out and knocked on doors of students houses to welcome them back to school. It was interesting to see where and how some of these kids live. It's amazing that some of them do so well when they're living in very poor conditions.
I'm really tired at the moment. I didn't sleep well. I actually went to sleep at 10:00 and fell asleep, but then woke up at 11:30 with some gastrointestinal issues. I didn't get back to bed until after midnight and finally around 1:00 I took 1/2 of a tylenol p.m. I'm starting to sound like a junkie, huh? I think once school starts, I will sleep just fine. I will be so totally exhausted that I just crash.
I made pizza tonight and if I say so myself, it was quite delicious. It's one of our favorite meals around here, aside from spaghetti. Well, I'm up for a lazy evening in my recliner in front of the boob tube. I'm really almost too tired to think.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
1. Who was your first love? Well, my first boyfriend was J.T. in 3rd grade. I can't call that anything other than puppy love. I thought that I was in love with my friend Bret. But that was just a major crush in junior high and high school. I guess my first real love was my boyfriend Tony in college.
2. Who was your first kiss and when? Mike S. (who now happens to be Josh's band director) when I was 13. It was actually in front of this house I'm living in now.
3. Who was your first prom date? My first and only was William A. He was the guy that dumped me the day afterwards. (Here's a pic of me in my prom dress.)
4. Who was your first room mate? Well... my first roommate (although briefly) was my friend Kirsten when we roomed together for two weeks at band camp. But my first long-term roommate was a girl named Lisa who I roomed with during my freshman year at college.
5. What was your first job? Hostess at Denny's restaurant.
---I'm wondering what happened to number 6???
7.When did you go to your first funeral? My best friend, Laura, when I was in junior high. (8th grade) She died of a brain tumor.
8. What was your first car? A 1979 Ford Mustang. I had to put a quart of oil in it every day.
9. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown? I haven't moved yet! Maybe when I'm 40 I'll move. (Though I was technically born in Perryton and we moved from there when I was 6)
10. Who was your first grade teacher? Mrs. Heron at Western Plateau
11. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? When I was 4 and I broke my neck, we flew to Oklahoma City where I had surgery.
Is it just multiples of six that's missing???
13. Where did you go for your first date and who was it with? What constitutes a date? I went on outings with a group of friends to movies when I was in junior high. I guess my first official date was in junior high when I went to a church movie night with Mike S.
14. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? I'm not sure... but it was when I was in 5th or 6th grade and lived out at the old TSTI air base.
15. Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them? Kirsten. We've known each other since we were babies. Yes, we're still friends.
16. Who was the first person to send you flowers? I really can't remember. I don't think I ever got flowers in high school. In college I got a valentine thing with ballons... but no flowers. When I was in my 20's I got flowers from this guy before we even went out on a date... so that might have been the first.
17. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parents house? Well, I sort of moved out for a while when I was in high school and I lived with my aunt for a few months. Officially was my first year in college and I lived in the dorm.
18. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? I don't call many people these days. Sometimes it's my friend Pam. Usually I just deal with it.
19. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen? My friend Robin's wedding.
20. What is the first thing you do when you wake up? Look at the alarm clock. If I don't go back to sleep I get up and go to the bathroom.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
In other good news, my body is finally acting normal again. That means I haven't had a period or spotted in several days. I'm hoping this will last. Now if I could just stop hurting myself in my classroom at school.
Tomorrow is my first official day back to work. We have inservice for the next week. I hate inservice. It is a bunch of pointless meetings that try to get us fired up about teaching. I would do better by having work days in my own room getting my materials ready. But they never ask for my opinion. I did get some more potential good news today. I may have 4 classes of my competition students instead of only two. That means I'll only have either one or two classes of regular speech. If I get an extra conference again, then I'll have one class. If not, it will only be two. Something else that is good is that my conference is going to be 4th period which is during lunch, so technically it's an hour and a half. Since I generally work through lunch, it will be nice to have that time.
Last night I went to bed without any medicine. I slept o.k. for the most part. I am going to try to get away from relying on tylenol p.m. if I can. I'm already tired, but will wait until 10:00 to go to bed. I need to get some laundry done so I'll have something to wear tomorrow. It's professional dress. I want to wait and wear my new clothes when school starts.
Bad news is that I just don't know where to put everything. I have plenty of room but I'm not sure how I want things to be organized. The storage room still hasn't been cleaned out as well. I could use that space to start organizing some of my other things, but I can't because it's pretty well packed with a bunch of other junk. As soon as I get things situated, I'll take more pictures so you can see what my room looks like now. Tomorrow is our first day back to work. We have inservice meetings for the next week. I will probably work in my room through my lunch hour. We have a lot of new staff this year so it will be interesting tomorrow.
I had a couple of students that came up and helped today. They cleaned out some of the junk that was in the storage unit in my room... at least in the cabinets that weren't locked. I'm not sure what to do about that. I can't use some of the cabinets and a filing cabinet because I have no keys for them. I think I need to find a student that is good at picking locks. I know that's kind of sad, but I think there are probably several here that would have that skill. Well, I better get back to work. I don't have much more time here.
I wanted to thank my new readers for commenting. It really made my day. I was starting to wonder if anyone was reading my blog any more.
Monday, August 07, 2006
Where to begin with the miracles in my life? There have been so many. Often I have not realized them until many years later, but I can see how very blessed I’ve been.
I think probably the earliest miracle was me getting to the age of five. I guess you could say I was a rambunctious child. When I was two, I got my head stuck in a cabinet, ripped part of my ear getting it out, and had to get three stitches. When I was three I fell off of a slide and busted my head getting another twenty stitches; I still have a funky part in my bangs. When I was four, I loved those Bayer children’s aspirin that tasted like orange candy. I ate an entire bottle and upon discovery was taken to the hospital and given that nasty syrup of Ipecac. But the biggest miracle was when I was hit by a car and broke my neck at the age of four and I never suffered any kind of paralysis. The details about how it happened aren’t important, but let’s say that my Big Wheel was involved and I think I was practicing my dare devil moves. When it happened, my mother had just gotten home and for some strange reason that she couldn’t explain, she walked straight to the window. She didn’t hear anything, but some propelled her. She saw that I’d been hit and ran outside. I was taken to a hospital where they said I was banged up pretty good, but really couldn’t find anything else wrong with me. I complained about my neck hurting for days afterwards so my parents took me to a chiropractor. It’s a funny memory because I remember going and was told they were going to take an x-ray and asked if I wanted to see my skeleton. I absolutely did not! Skeletons were scary! After that, I was flown to
I’m sure I had other miracles during my childhood, but those memories tend to be foggy these days. I do know that I experienced several more during the time I was in college and facing an unplanned pregnancy. I’ve never told anyone this, but when I knew there was a possibility that I might be pregnant, I prayed that I was. I don’t know why at the time because it would completely turn my life upside down, but there was a part of me that felt I needed to do it. And so I was. I had others that wanted me to have an abortion, including the father, but I said no. I briefly thought of adoption, but ruled it out almost immediately. I wasn’t sure how I was going to handle it, but I had decided to do whatever I needed to raise this child and finish school.
It was very much a struggle. There were times I was so tired because I didn’t get any sleep and then had to go to class, and then had to work and do homework that I didn’t know which way was up. But because of Josh, many more miracles seemed to happen. If I hadn’t gotten pregnant and had him, I probably would never have qualified for work study or grants. My parents were middle income which was too much for certain assistance but they didn’t have enough to pay for my education. After I had Josh, my entire college years were paid for and I only had one college loan - $1000 for one summer session in which I didn’t get a grant.
I earned less than $5000 a year but still had food to eat and a place to live. The first house I lived with Josh was a small place that had two bedroom areas, a living area, tiny kitchen & bath for only $75 a month. This is without being on HUD. It needed to be fixed up because it only had cement floors at the time, but we found used carpet in good condition, painted the walls, and even finding a refrigerator that fit in the small space was another miracle. We happened upon it while driving around town and it was sitting in someone’s yard. The owner hadn’t planned to sell it, but decided to on the spot.
And so the miracles continued. I always seemed to find a place to live that was affordable. When I applied for my first teaching job, I only applied at one district and a job in my field just happened to open up that summer. When I was facing my divorce, a foreclosure, and my mother’s death, her passing, although sad, gave me a new start with a place to live. When I had no health insurance with my job for two years, Josh and I stayed healthy. When I decided to return to teaching in order to get health insurance, another job opened up at just the right time.
These are only a few of miracles and blessings in my life. I have often wondered why I have been blessed when I’ve thought I have been so undeserving of it. I gave up on religion for quite a long time, but I still seemed to manage during the bleak moments. And now that I finally found faith again and am experiencing God’s graces in a very profound way, it continues. Yes, sometimes I still wonder when it’s all going to come crashing down, but if and when it does, I will still have the other blessings and good things to help me through.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
I went to early Mass at 8:30 this morning so I'd have time for lunch before having to head up to Amarillo. I was still tired when I got home so I went back to bed for about an hour. Now I'm waiting for my lunch to be finished. I know... exciting day, huh? I really don't know what else to write about. I've exhausted the subject of my love life, or lack thereof. You know that I don't have much in the way of friends either. My life is dull and I sometimes wonder why anyone reads my blog at all. No, I don't necessarily want excitement either... that's usually not a good thing. I guess I wish I had other thoughts to share besides my dull life.
I thought about writing about things from my past, but my memory is getting a bit foggy and some things I'm too embarrassed to even put in this blog. I'll give it some thought and try to come up with something more entertaining than "I did this today... blah, blah, blah."
Well, gotta go deal with lunch.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Shopping was a bit exhausting. I'm ready to sit in my lazy boy recliner and veg in front of the t.v. for a bit. Eventually, I'll make supper.
I'm heading out shortly to face the crowds at the mall. I, too, want to take advantage of this tax-free weekend. I have a budget and I hope to get a few new things to start the school year.
Time to head out!
Friday, August 04, 2006
- Last place you were: Feldman’s Diner for dinner.
- Last drug used: Benadryl about 15 minutes ago. Tylenol/Tylenol p.m. yesterday
- Last beverage: Coke
- Last kiss: Do I really have to admit this? More than a year ago. July 2005.
- Last movie seen: Pirates of the Caribbean Dead Man’s Chest
- Last phone call: Dad called while I was taking a nap to ask if he had a DVD delivered here. I’m amazed I remember this as I was half asleep.
- Last CD played: John Michael Talbot – Table of Plenty
- Last bubble bath: I honestly can’t remember… years probably.
- Last time you cried: I’m thinking… a few days ago watching Oprah I think. It’s been a long time since the real dramatic heartbroken type tears.
Have You Evers.....
- Have you ever dated someone twice?: Yes, Marty.
- Have you ever been cheated on?: Yes
- Have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it?: Yes – no details though.
- Have you ever fallen in love?: Yes, more than once.
- Have you ever lost someone?: Of course.
- Have you ever been depressed?: Yes… during my marriage. I had to take anti-depressants for it.
- Have you ever been out of the country?: Yes – I went to the
Caribbeanon my honeymoon. I’ve also been to briefly. Mexico
- Have you ever been on T.V?: Very briefly… the t.v. crew filmed our class in elementary school and I was on for a split second.
- 7 States that you have been to:
New Mexico, California, Connecticut, Nevada, Michigan, Kansas, and … where the wind comes sweeping down the plain. Oklahoma
6 Things You Have Done Today....
- Took a shower
- Went to Kinkos to have documents printed.
- Taught a yearbook workshop.
- Went out to dinner.
- Watched Monk & Psych.
- Read blogs & blogged.
5 Favorite Things....
- My God & my Church.
- My son.
- Spaghetti & meatsauce
- My laptop
4 People You Can Tell Almost Anything....
- Richard – my ex-husband… strange, I know.
- My friend Pam
- My friend Carol
- My blog readers
3 Favorite Colors
2 Things You Want To Do Before You Die....
- Ride 600 rollercoasters
- Get out of debt
1 Thing You Regret.....
- I really try to not live with regrets. I think all our experiences have something to teach us… even the bad ones.
When I got home, my brother was here fixing my sink drain. He was impressed with the bathroom as well. After he finished, Josh and I went out to eat because there was no way I was going to spend the effort in cooking someting. It was very good and now I have leftovers for tomorrow. Now I really want to sleep, but I need to stay up to watch Monk and Psych. I might just go take a nap.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
So today's plans are to go back to the school and finish all the touch up painting and paint the long ledge by the windows. Since I won't be able to go back over there until Monday, I wanted to be able to have the painting completely finished and then I can start organizing my room and putting furniture back on Monday. It's still not quite enough time, I'm afraid, but somehow I'll manage to pull it together and be ready for the first day of school. I may regret saying this later, but I'm actually looking forward to getting back into the swing of school and starting classes. The only concern is the fact that now I have three preparations this year instead of one. One of them is debate which isn't my strongest subject, but I'm going do the best I can.
Well, I'm off to take a shower and get ready to head out.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
On the way home, I had to drive through several rain storms. I thought of my friend Andrew who would have really appreciated it. I actually thought about him all day today as it was a big day for him. I was glad to discover that there was a great deal of good news for him today and he's still going to be around for a while.
Tonight I have to continue getting ready for my workshop on Friday. I started putting stuff together last night. Luckily almost everything is already in a power point, I'm just combining some of the files and adding some of my own things. I already had a powerpoint for the workshop from last year, but I'm just combining the two for the most part. I'm also putting together a packet of information for each school and I need to finish that tonight so I can go have it printed tomorrow.
Well, I'm going to go have a glass of tea and sit in my recliner for a bit.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
I got some sleep finally last night, but I still didn't sleep very sound. I took the tylenols at 9:00 and fell asleep around 10:40. I woke up briefly around 1:00, again around 3-something; 5-something and 8:00. I got up around 8:30 and got ready to go to Hereford. Josh went with me and drove. We went to my room and taped the trim edges so the trim could be painted. We came back home and had left over stromboli for lunch. My friend Kirsten came over and then we went to Amarillo to go shoe shopping. We went to two different stores and she tried on a million pairs of shoes.. just kidding... only about 3-4 pair at each store. At the second store, she found a winner and got a new pair of tennis shoes. Then we went to the mall to see if the southwest artsy-stuff store was still there, but it wasn't. Then we went to another clothing store across town and to the grocery store to get some special dog food for her parent's dogs. After that we came home. Josh had a doctor's appointment for 3:45 to get one of his booster shots for school. Now I'm home and worn out. We're going to the band picnic tonight at 6:30 which means I don't have to cook, so I'm thankful for that. When I get back, I hope to get started on my workshop stuff for this Friday. I'm ready to get that done with and hopefully I'll have a little bit of shopping money afterwards. That's all the excitement here today.
oh.... to answer Summer's question: No, I only actually laid one tile section. My friend Matt did the tile work until I was one section short. He left a space so I could get another tile and put it in myself. I did, however, do all the grouting on the counter as well as the caulking.